Hey guys, remember me? Sorry I haven't "blogged" in a while. I've just been living life. Creating memories. Reading books. Trying to figure out the meaning of life. Ya know, the usual. I just started a new book: The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. It's a captivating novel. I'm almost done, but my mom's in town right now so I am spending more time with her than my book recently. There are so many hilarious and also poignant lines and concepts in it. The death-anxiety part of me is loving it, but it's not just philosophical - it's also about two awesome cancer-fighting teens falling in love (obviously everyone knows about this story, right?!) so my teenage-girly heart is loving it too.
Do you believe in an afterlife? This is one conversation that they have. Read the book to hear it (and/or to have your heart explode). We are all looking for the meaning of our lives, and how we can create meaning within them. What will my verse be? Hmm.
I do believe that there is something for us after death. And going through death brings us closer to God. I believe there is a Supreme Being who created me and loves me. There I said it. Sounds crazy, right? It's becoming less and less popular and intellectually-sound to believe in God these days isn't it? Well I never was very popular. I am young but I've been through some crappy things in my life. I haven't had to deal much with death, though. And now I think about it every day. Why? Because it scares me. I have little children. I have never had to feel this way about another human, until I created two that are now a part of this earth. There are parts of my body that are now living beings walking around that I love so dearly that if I think about it too much my heart seriously might explode. I sacrificed my existence so that I could create life. I could have died delivering them. I would die for them without any hesitation. And that's scary.
But we do things that are so scary because that is how we form connections, understand God, and create meaning. The things you aren't doing because they are scary are so often the best things. We are all dying like people fighting cancer, just not as quickly. Sorry if that was too blunt - what I'm saying is, let's really live our lives the way we really want to live them! That means different things for every person: for some it is seeing the whole world, for others it is simply spending more time with the people they love. Anyway, all this is coming from the thoughts and questions in my brain recently. What do you think about all this? I am trying really hard to be a better person which starts with loving people unconditionally and not thinking about myself as much. A lot comes from that I think and there are so many adventures waiting to be had so love yourself and everyone and live life with courage and purpose. That's a lot to ask for... Well, it helps to sit, meditate, and reflect. Then make a list of ways to create a better quality of life. Think about how you can create it every day. I would show you mine, but I simply want to keep it mine.
I suppose I will tell you one, though:
Keep social media off my phone so that I can be present and available with my kids.
I would love to hear your thoughts whether you did it or not.
Do you believe in an afterlife? This is one conversation that they have. Read the book to hear it (and/or to have your heart explode). We are all looking for the meaning of our lives, and how we can create meaning within them. What will my verse be? Hmm.
I do believe that there is something for us after death. And going through death brings us closer to God. I believe there is a Supreme Being who created me and loves me. There I said it. Sounds crazy, right? It's becoming less and less popular and intellectually-sound to believe in God these days isn't it? Well I never was very popular. I am young but I've been through some crappy things in my life. I haven't had to deal much with death, though. And now I think about it every day. Why? Because it scares me. I have little children. I have never had to feel this way about another human, until I created two that are now a part of this earth. There are parts of my body that are now living beings walking around that I love so dearly that if I think about it too much my heart seriously might explode. I sacrificed my existence so that I could create life. I could have died delivering them. I would die for them without any hesitation. And that's scary.
But we do things that are so scary because that is how we form connections, understand God, and create meaning. The things you aren't doing because they are scary are so often the best things. We are all dying like people fighting cancer, just not as quickly. Sorry if that was too blunt - what I'm saying is, let's really live our lives the way we really want to live them! That means different things for every person: for some it is seeing the whole world, for others it is simply spending more time with the people they love. Anyway, all this is coming from the thoughts and questions in my brain recently. What do you think about all this? I am trying really hard to be a better person which starts with loving people unconditionally and not thinking about myself as much. A lot comes from that I think and there are so many adventures waiting to be had so love yourself and everyone and live life with courage and purpose. That's a lot to ask for... Well, it helps to sit, meditate, and reflect. Then make a list of ways to create a better quality of life. Think about how you can create it every day. I would show you mine, but I simply want to keep it mine.
I suppose I will tell you one, though:
Keep social media off my phone so that I can be present and available with my kids.
I would love to hear your thoughts whether you did it or not.